July 22, 2013
That was the last time I posted anything on here. It doesn't seem that long ago. God is teaching me a lot about how precious our time is. I don't really have much to say for this post. I don't really have anything deep to share. Just wanted to drop by and say I'm back, baby! (Well... for now.) You may be wondering what took me so long...
Life gets crazy and one thing leads to another. Eventually it all begins to blend together. You get lost in the mundane and life becomes dull and routine. The vision of intention becomes blurry and you're aimlessly wandering. God always finds a way to jolt you. This is what happened to me a few weeks ago.
Life had become tasteless. I lost sight of the mission. I was tired, I was weary, and I was ready to give up. Then, God showed me something I never saw coming. He friggin hammered me. I don't think that He wants me to disclose all the details just yet. He's still writing this chapter. What I've learned, though, is that there is purpose in EVERYTHING! And I do mean EVERYTHING.
I was reminded of my own story a few weeks ago. The story of how Jesus healed me. So much has come from that day of reminiscence. SO MUCH! Words could never adequately describe the overwhelming feelings I've had. I mean I have been overwhelmed with the sovereignty of the Lord. His control is glorious. It is beautiful! As each day passes, I come to know more about Him.
But why have I been absent from here so long?
... I've been running ...
My primary motive in creating this blog was to share that story of how Jesus rescued me. My testimony is a gift. It is a gift, not only to me, but also to anyone who I share it with. My life testifies to the power of Christ and is proof of His presence and existence. I can honestly say that had Jesus not intervened, I may not be here. Several months ago, God told me that it was time. Time to let down my walls and make myself vulnerable to this broken world.
I knew at that moment that my next post was to be my testimony. God was asking me to publish my crap. So, my natural response was to avoid this request. The thing about the Father is that He ALWAYS gets His way. That day I was reminded of my broken record, God was confronting me. He was reminding me of His truth and His grace. Romans 8:1 was ringing loud and clear - There is therfore now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus.
So, this is foreshadowing my next post. I'm in the process of writing it now. I feel like I'm in over my head, but I know God will use my words somehow. Even though I'm struggling to find words, I am confident that He will use this next post to build His kingdom. That alone is well worth the risk.